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Fast Forward - Jesse
Its been about 3 days since my last entry, my thoughts are EVERY WHERE!
I hate this. i really hate everything that has gone out of spin, out of the happy ending plot i wanted to have for everyone around me...especially with Eleanor.
Then again, even though so many things have happened and its really a struggle but i guess after the talk earlier this evening my forever bestie has our ultimate support and forgiveness.
By 'our', i mean Trey, Cameron and myself.
Earlier we met at our usual place, Cameron didn't want to come but Trey asked him if he still loved Ellie and can't imagine his life without her, if he couldn't - he should come along.
And he did.
I met Eleanor before that to get the answers i wanted about whether she was really two-timing her EX and Cameron, if she really loved him..Normally, she's always flashing her voluptuous figure and wearing those thick eye-liner but when i saw her today, she was totally bare-faced!
Eleanor without her eye-liner?! hahaha.
Okay back to the topic..
That was about 2 weeks ago, Eleanor met her ex in one of those 'PMS-y' moments after a quarrel with Cameron. He didn't want to pick her up in his new car and she got really pissed.
Coincidentally, her ex sms her all of a sudden and she agreed to join him at the bar.
Yada yada, a few drinks later she got tipsy and being emotional she slept with him.
no protection watsoever..
Dangerous, lady.
She told me she really wanted to just forget about it but when she knew that jerk had HIV, she got really scared and that's when things became so.
I told her i'll talk to cameron and hope he forgives her.
So, we all met at the coffee bean at orchard and the both of them had this awkward silence. horrible! Trey broke the ice by talking about how 'FRESH' faced Eleanor was. As usual, he's the monkey and trying to be nice to her and cameron.
Cameron then said she always looked beautiful - awwwww. and that's finally a smile on her face.
SOOooo me and trey pretended to go order our drinks and let them chat a bit.
we were gone like half an hour and Eleanor smsed 'we know u two love birds are hiding. come back. n..we agreed to patch. for better for worse'
Yipee!
Of course we didn't forget that her ex has HIV. Cameron said he'll go with Eleanor on the 2nd check over at the DSC clinic. That he'll also get himself tested. And if the worse happens, they'll decide. But for now, they're abstaining from sex (Eleanor told me.) but then of course, they can still share drinks and he can still eat all the veggies from her plate. they can still hug while watching movies cos its all right, so as long as there's no blood or body fluids contact, or so i've read...
"HIV can't be caught by kissing, hugging or shaking hands with an infected person, and it can't be transmitted by sneezes, door handles or dirty glasses. "
Later on Trey and i went to his studio and he played one of the soundtrack of his life - 'Have you ever really loved a woman' by Bryan Adams for me! ME!
Saying this song was everything he wanted to tell me and ...my smile was so wide and my heart just couldn't stop beating loudly. I am so touched!
He's like the best boyfriend ever. He respects me and even though he's cheeky he just loves me and said being the girl i am, he appreciates me more. what more can i say but awww..
Trey just texted me to 'stay positive, sweetie..'
I guess i will stay positive..

Eleanor is my best friend and if she's sick, i will be there for her.
Get involved with Jesse and Trey today @ www.notsosecretlives.com
Its been about 3 days since my last entry, my thoughts are EVERY WHERE!
I hate this. i really hate everything that has gone out of spin, out of the happy ending plot i wanted to have for everyone around me...especially with Eleanor.
Then again, even though so many things have happened and its really a struggle but i guess after the talk earlier this evening my forever bestie has our ultimate support and forgiveness.
By 'our', i mean Trey, Cameron and myself.
Earlier we met at our usual place, Cameron didn't want to come but Trey asked him if he still loved Ellie and can't imagine his life without her, if he couldn't - he should come along.
And he did.
I met Eleanor before that to get the answers i wanted about whether she was really two-timing her EX and Cameron, if she really loved him..Normally, she's always flashing her voluptuous figure and wearing those thick eye-liner but when i saw her today, she was totally bare-faced!
Eleanor without her eye-liner?! hahaha.
Okay back to the topic..
That was about 2 weeks ago, Eleanor met her ex in one of those 'PMS-y' moments after a quarrel with Cameron. He didn't want to pick her up in his new car and she got really pissed.
Coincidentally, her ex sms her all of a sudden and she agreed to join him at the bar.
Yada yada, a few drinks later she got tipsy and being emotional she slept with him.
no protection watsoever..
Dangerous, lady.
She told me she really wanted to just forget about it but when she knew that jerk had HIV, she got really scared and that's when things became so.
I told her i'll talk to cameron and hope he forgives her.
So, we all met at the coffee bean at orchard and the both of them had this awkward silence. horrible! Trey broke the ice by talking about how 'FRESH' faced Eleanor was. As usual, he's the monkey and trying to be nice to her and cameron.
Cameron then said she always looked beautiful - awwwww. and that's finally a smile on her face.
SOOooo me and trey pretended to go order our drinks and let them chat a bit.
we were gone like half an hour and Eleanor smsed 'we know u two love birds are hiding. come back. n..we agreed to patch. for better for worse'
Yipee!
Of course we didn't forget that her ex has HIV. Cameron said he'll go with Eleanor on the 2nd check over at the DSC clinic. That he'll also get himself tested. And if the worse happens, they'll decide. But for now, they're abstaining from sex (Eleanor told me.) but then of course, they can still share drinks and he can still eat all the veggies from her plate. they can still hug while watching movies cos its all right, so as long as there's no blood or body fluids contact, or so i've read...
"HIV can't be caught by kissing, hugging or shaking hands with an infected person, and it can't be transmitted by sneezes, door handles or dirty glasses. "
Later on Trey and i went to his studio and he played one of the soundtrack of his life - 'Have you ever really loved a woman' by Bryan Adams for me! ME!
Saying this song was everything he wanted to tell me and ...my smile was so wide and my heart just couldn't stop beating loudly. I am so touched!
He's like the best boyfriend ever. He respects me and even though he's cheeky he just loves me and said being the girl i am, he appreciates me more. what more can i say but awww..
Trey just texted me to 'stay positive, sweetie..'
I guess i will stay positive..

Eleanor is my best friend and if she's sick, i will be there for her.
Get involved with Jesse and Trey today @ www.notsosecretlives.com
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